Ya’ll, I think this might be a good one. Let’s find out together.

First, let me set the scene. I’m at the campground at the Bears Lodge, aka Devil’s Tower. I will be calling it Bears Lodge to honor and respect the Lakota and others from this land. Its full moon in Sagittarius, my first house, my rising sign. I came here to connect to the energy from the lodge, for what? I don’t know, it just said go.

Anyways, back to setting the scene. I had a whole fire ceremony prepared. I didn’t even really know I did until I arrived and saw a huge pile of free firewood. Like why not?

Tonight is that night and well, its raining. Thundering. The most perfect, sweetest humbling thunder storm.  I’ve accepted my plans have changed and I have received information concerning my ceremony now. And boy, am I excited. We will talk more about that later.

I just finished cooking my dinner and this time, it isn’t half fucking bad. I’m learning how to cook better and how to simply cook without recipes. Everest was in the bed while Juneau is sitting outside watching the wildlife.

I don’t have cell service and I’m not really wanting to waste my energy on starlink through the evening. Its been forcing me to unplug and also look at just how much I check my cell phone. It is stupid to much. As I’m writing this, I’m like, ahhh I need to check it, where is it?

No, I don’t. I need to be more important to me. Not important to other people.

Once again, we jumping the gun… back on topic kid.

I’m sitting on the step of my van, eating my dinner. This place is beautiful. It is magical. It has opened and freed my mind. Its allowed me to see a deeper step into myself.

I don’t think enough people engage in this. Yes, the energy is rather helpful, but I do this all the time in nature back home, maybe not just as deep and profound.

Being able to disconnect, to come back into mother nature, to listen, to feel, to smell, to be connected to her. It then allows your mind to wander, wander to places of your own mind, your own guides, your own authentic self.

As a therapist, I see so many people afraid of connecting with this person, including myself. When we are able to sit, just be and exist in that moment of safety, our mind begins to wander into those spaces. So many people are terrified. What hard things do you need to learn about yourself? Accept about yourself? Love about yourself? Change about yourself? But when you do that, you give yourself the opportunity to sit in the pure balance of beauty.

But you have to do the hard work, you have to fight your own demons. Hell, even though I’m enjoying this most peaceful moment in this beautiful place, I’m still fighting one of my own. I also know that I can, and I will and I will be a better person for myself once I battle it out.

Pachama loves for us to slow down, to remember who we are to her and who she is to us. She teaches us to breath and trust the process, even if we can’t always see it happening. I’ve learned the more I trust the process, I know the more I trust myself, fighting my demons aren’t so hard.

I wonder when was the last time you allowed your mind to wander? You never know where it might lead you.