Let’s get caught up.

I’ve writen some blogs over the last year, but haven’t had a chance to post them. I’m making a promise to myself to get caught up and get to weekly updates. So much has happened! This blog was written on May 25, 2025. Buckle up buttercups and let’s go!

This morning, I found myself scrolling through my facebook memories. Don’t worry, I’ve already gotten up, walked the dogs and now I’m just prepping my decaf coffee. Mind you, I have had my Facebook since 2007, back in the original days when you needed an invite to get one.

It is such a wild emotional roller coaster some days when I do that. I reflect back on my high school days when I was an emotional wreck, but now my older self will laugh at my younger self, because don’t we all go through that?

Then I reflect on my young adulthood. You know, those ripe years between 18 and 24? I mean, I would probably need to break those down from 18 to 21 and then 21 on. Still an emotional wreck at some points, but hey, at least I was figuring it out.

It reminded me of my ex wife, some of the good times and how much I do miss my in-laws – well to an extent. And then I reflect on my mid 20s, where I lived a hell of a year being free to roam the mountains and learn myself in ways I don’t think I would have ever had if I hadn’t been alone and on that adventure.

Memories scroll by in my most recent years, where I’m still trying to figure myself out, but the emotional wreck isn’t nearly that bad. As I continue to reflect on my years of adventures, growth and seeking, I still find myself on that same journey. That journey of who am I and what serves me right now?

I think that is the answer we will always be seeking. My younger teen needed different things than what I need now. I’m able to ask for my needs in a much better way compared to then. I can see how some needs have stayed consistent throughout my life, I’ve not always had the means or community to meet them. Or the courage to face my fears and let go of the judgement I might be met with.

One thing I try to never do – is meet my younger self with anger or resentment. I always meet my younger self with grace, kindness and compassion. Why? I didn’t have the life experiences I had back then that I have now, so why be critical? I laugh at myself and I reflect with gratitude on each person and each experience I have had. I simply would not be the person in which I am today.

I also find that when I do meet my younger self with compassion and a touch of humor, it allows me to meet myself right now, in this moment, in the exact same way. I remind myself that I’m on this journey of exploring who I am in this moment, in this chapter of my life. This chapter that will come to a close and a new one will start. Then I wonder about what my future self will think of me right now, in this chapter?

Life is about a series of decisions, experiences and reflections. We make a decision to have an experience. We have the experience and then we reflect on it and then do it all over again, but maybe differently, or the same.

If we don’t take the time to reflect on our life, even if those chapters in our life feel like life times ago, then how do we learn? How do we grow? How do we learn to meet ourselves with compassion and grace.

When was the last time you took time to reflect on a decision you made? If you didn’t like yourself and your choice, that is okay. But as a gentle reminder, it is made you who you are today and if you had made a different choice, where would you be?

I ask myself that all the time and to be honest, I wouldn’t change anything. Even the downs and the parts that felt like hell. I love this journey that I’m on and this person I’m constantly discovering about myself.